Thursday, November 29, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
* BLOG REOPENS IN DEC
THIS IS A NEW BEGINNING. IT HAS BEEN A NEW BEGINNING FOR SOME TIME NOW.
NOW TIME WILL PLAY ITS PART, AND I WILL PLAY MY PART, AND I HOPE WE DON'T HAVE TO PART.
I TRULY DO WANT HER, BUT IS IT IN HER BEST INTERESTS?
this is driving me nuts...
Monday, November 12, 2007
This is the worst birthday ever. So much for turning 25. Theres only so many regrets one can have in ones life before one realizes that regrets are the results of decisions that turned out wrong, and if one has many regrets, obviously one's decision making is deeply flawed.
One can never be fully erased of ones past transgressions or sins. No matter how much we try to leave things behind, manage things out, it just won't work, will it? Justifications will never absolve one of wrongdoing, no matter who is perceiving it.
Well I've been given a new lease of life. A new beginning, if you will, if thats even possible, to mend all those holes. Would it ever be enough, can we undo or repair what damage we've caused?
Shall temp stop updating this blog for a while til I get a grip on myself.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Bachelor life was good. You only think of yourself, just you you you, want to go home early? Just drop it and go! You want to play sports? Just drop it and go!
But once happily attached, life does get better.
However, theres a flip side to it. You realize you are on that road to adulthood, journeying through maturity, on a path where theres a greater destination awaiting you. And sometimes on this path, in order to reap the desired rewards, there is a price to pay.
I want nice holidays for my wife and kids. I want my kids to have a good education. I want them to lead a comfortable life, with a neat tidy house and lots of books and good music and great food. Although the best things in life, such as appreciating a girlfriend's legs, are free, some things do need to be paid for financially. And so, I realize I do need a career.
It is time to buckle down. I complain a bit, but I have in a way resigned myself to my lot. Looks like it is going to be working hard and investing in my career from this point on. Got to put myself in a position to command the salary requisite to lead and provide the lifestyle outlined above.
It does piss me off a bit though. How come people in other industries can earn so much more? I guess it boils down to whether I want to take a risk and move to another industry where it is potentially more lucrative or to focus and specialize in my current. If specialize, this is a good spot to be in for the next yer or 2, and if move, it's best to start seeking now and procrastinate no longer.
This is sounding really like a broken record...
THE NBA SEASON HAS COMMENCED!!!
It's started it's started!
OMG. My life has meaning again. Bliss, pure unadulterated bliss. From Nov til June, non stop action packed basketball! Ahh...Ahh...the dissections..statiscial analysis.. plots..trades..roster tweaks..strategy..drama..subplots..
Isn't it great? Life is looking up again. Rship with the gf is on the mend.
Walala! The sun IS shining brightly today.
And the Sports Club finally managed to help us book a court! oh joy. must get enough ppl to go...please please..dear God...let us keep this indoor court.
And when the time comes, it's time for the Ops team to kick some ass.