Just a moment please

Have you ever thought, you know wat, I'd like such and such a thing to happen.
And you have never felt like that before. Then it dominates your thoughts.
But you think it out and you realize, that stuff is so ... excellent...and that you are comparatively so unexcellent...that it would never happen. Not with you. And you can rationally and logically list down why. And some more, when you keep seeing signs (which you later realize are misinterpretations or something) that prove you right.

So you crush and stifle, stamp and psyche out all these things. Of course its difficult, but you try your best, do what you can, and whatever happens, happens. Then just when you accept the situation, resign yourself to that fact (which you realize later isnt really a fact) make your plans to take this into account, done your despairing and drowning your sorrows bit, etc etc, suddenly, things totally and unexpectedly take a backflip and you realize, that, there is a possibility.

Only 2 paths to take, yet so many things to consider, and so many possible consequences.