No big deal just deal with it

i am so tired.

physically worn out and not replenished because i havent had my regular dosage of sports. then on monday went for a full court game and did lots of running and ended up got slightly sore thighs. and thats fine, not so bad. i like that feeling.

emotionally slightly worn out and spent over recent tumultuous and turmoil filled times. its a testing time, but i know what i want to be, and i know where i am, and i know what i have to do to get to where i want to be so that i can be all that i want to be for her. and she deserves nothing less. i've just got to do it. bit by bit day by day, its a continuous improvement initiative which i hope she can gradually feel.

mentally fatigued with the load of BS coming my way at work. of course, i know what i got to do, i know how to do it, and its jus a matter of doing it. but its a task almost impossible. normal handovers are conducted over a period of 2 months with full handholding and easing into of the new role. and after the handover, more often than not, the old guy is still around for the new guy to refer to. but i've got approx 2 weeks, and after that the old guy is gone and the expectation is that i will slide into his role and outperform him. great! and on top of that, theres the current stuff which i originally had til end nov to do which i have to finish by mid oct. great!! ok, nvm, emotional distractive white noise aside, what has got to b done will be done. end of story.

spiritually, embarking on a journey towards a faith i alwiz thought would never claim me as one of its ardent adherents. its been pleasing, also a time of self discovery. i just need to take my own time in order to ensure sustainability, and that things are done the right way and for the right reasons.

on top of it all, while applying for a credit card, received a phone call from the background credit checkers. apparently my name is being used for a home loan!? wtf? i alredi have a house, and have never applied for any card or loan insofar of my life. so what gives?